Tempers

When describing my personality, people rarely use the words tender, kind, docile, or soft spoken. While I do have a very sweet side (I think), I also am very strong willed, stubborn, and quick to anger...

That quick to anger part is one that I have really been trying to work on recently. Especially with Kellen, and Chewie! I tend to get very "frustrated" as I like to call it, when things go awry... as they seem to always do! Chewie barking, chewie peeing, pooping on the floor, all seem to be triggers (why did we get a dog?).

But mostly, I am trying to work on my temper with Kellen! We seem to have been at each others' throats lately, mostly because we have problems communicating. We both think very VERY differently, and that is hard when you are trying to work on communication. For example, my perception of Kellen's thought process (if you could call it one) is "Me, Kellen... you, Lauren." (like Me, Tarzan... you, Jane.) Kellen is so focused on school, accounting, books, work, that he rarely thinks about anything else. I say that I understand, and I really do try to be supportive, but I get so frustrated (and lonely) when he really doesn't have time to even say hello, or most of the time, goodbye!

Through some specific conversations and issues that have come up, Kellen basically explained how detrimental my temper was to him, and I really cant blame him. I have a tendency to fly off the handle in some situations.... work, school, tax office officials that piss me off, road rage... just in general. I am really trying to tone it down, and mellow out a little more! It is hard for me... that perfectionist inside just doesnt want to let it go... but I think I am going to have to for my sanity, and for Kellen's!

PS- I am also trying to stop cussing :) but sometimes it just feels so good!