March Madness

March Madness isnt just about basketball, ya'll! :)

I have recently picked up a new hobby, or hobby-to-be, which is quilting! Kellen's sister Bailey really got my wheels turning on it, so I am giving it a whirl! I am really enjoying it so far, and I hope I get to be really good at it!!

I finished the baby blanket that I made for Chad and Heather today... it only took about two months and several skeins of yarn because i made it WAY too big, but I think it will still be functional and I am going to give it to them anyways... I think they will still like it!

I am going to start some new knitting projects soon too... one of the things that I am learning through counseling is that I really need to focus on my life outside of work, and not just at work. She said that when we dont have a life at home, we tend to create an artificial life at work, which makes sense, and that if I get that way, I probably need to focus more on my home life. DUH, right? Why didnt I think of that before?

I have also recently started looking for ANYTHING else, in terms of work! I have applied for a couple of internal positions, but my time as a service manager is coming to an end... for several reasons. I need an opportunity to take the lessons that I learned in that branch, and make a fresh start somewhere else. I need to separate my personal and professional life on so many levels that its not even funny. I have had a lot of interest generated by my applications to different companies, but I am basically just waiting for the right opportunity and the right paycheck! :) Its just basically waiting to see who can afford me!

Things are going well with my Nannie and Popo, which means my prayers are being answered!! I talked to Nannie the other day to see if she could offer any help with learning how to quilt... she said SHE hadnt even learned how to yet!! Funny, because thats what she said she wanted to do when she retired!! :) She is silly!

I am starting to have more and more internal peace, and feel like I am back to normal in terms of my attitude, priorities, long term goals... I felt like I had lost all of that for a while, so it is really nice to feel like the old Lauren again (whoever that was!) I had always felt like I had a really good understanding of who I was, but for a while there, I lost her.... I wasnt sure who was standing in her place, but that girl was not in a good place at all... It took a long time for her to go away, but I feel like she is gone, and I am back! Is that a normal feeling? I hope not, because it was not a fun experience for me!! But I am in a much better place personally, and in my marriage now, and I thank God everyday! It feels good to be able to breathe again!

well, that is all for now... L-Boogie Out!

New Quirk

Let me just address a new quirk that I did not know I had before it came up. In Kellen's chest of drawers, there was a broken drawer, and everytime I would put his clothes up, I would "fix it" as much as I could (which meant pop the bottom back in place since these are just walmart drawers.) So, I decided that Kellen and I should switch dressers so that I can be gentler on the drawer than he is. BUT, I could not leave the drawer broken. I begged Kellen to do whatever he could to fix it because I just couldnt go on with the drawer staying broken. I thought, well, I really dont NEED that drawer, maybe I will just not use it... but it killed me to know that the drawer would still be broken. I think all of this stems from the fact that my parents had drawers that they would leave broken, that are still, to this day, broken! And they still use them!! That is why I absolutely could NOT allow that to happen to me! Kellen was nice enough to fix it permanently and save me from my despair.