Ahh, it feels so great to be in a place to not have anything to gripe about, and just feel completely thankful for everything that is going on in my life!
We have been going to church again, which I really enjoy, and it has really got me thinking about my sprituality, what I believe, and that I want answers to some questions I have. Luckily, I think our church is one that will help provide those answers and that will help me get involved in that church community.
My job is going great... I like it more and more each day, and everything at home is going amazingly as well. Things are all good!
Right now, I am focusing on body, mind, soul each day. I figure, if I work on each of these each day, it will further my happiness! (and help me get into shape again!)
For my body, I am recommitting to p90x, the lean version. For my mind, I am working and reading, and for my soul, I am committing to a bible study each day, so I can learn more about my religion and familiarize myself with God's word. I will keep you posted on my progress! Wish me luck!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
New Year's Resolutions
I swore to myself that I wouldn't have any this year, but I can't help it... I have a few still:
1. I want to continue working out and further my fitness with P90x... I need a re-commitment to the program after Vegas and the holidays!
2. I want to be better at my job... the rookie period is over and I really want to work on building relationships,going the extra mile, and making sure I am on top of my game!
3. I need to get back to church. This is a huge goal for me because it is really important that we find a relationship with God.
Actually, I think these are the main ones that I want to work on, which they pretty much cover body, mind, and soul. This should be a good focus for me and I can't wait for a better 2011!
1. I want to continue working out and further my fitness with P90x... I need a re-commitment to the program after Vegas and the holidays!
2. I want to be better at my job... the rookie period is over and I really want to work on building relationships,going the extra mile, and making sure I am on top of my game!
3. I need to get back to church. This is a huge goal for me because it is really important that we find a relationship with God.
Actually, I think these are the main ones that I want to work on, which they pretty much cover body, mind, and soul. This should be a good focus for me and I can't wait for a better 2011!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Grinchy Christmas Eve
Yesterday I was really foul... tired and cranky from traveling, and I officially became my mom when I didnt get the present I wanted... not my proudest moment. The thing is, I just really couldnt help it! I felt like such a B, which I was being, and I feel really bad about it.
I am feeling better today, thank goodness. amazing what a little sleep will do! which speaking of sleep, last night I dreamt that Nannie and Popo were getting remarried in a hotel in Vegas, and they had a "special high rollers" suite, where no one could get in normally... and Nannie and Popo kept trying to ditch us so we couldnt see their secret pimp suite, but I was able to follow them behind a secret door in the wall of the hotel store because an earring propped the door open.. so I followed them and discovered a pimp suite of my own! I fell asleep there with baby Camryn until right when the wedding started to happen! Everyone was rushing around like crazy, and helping Nannie get ready to walk down the aisle again... it was really weird. BUT, to compound the strangeness, earlier in the dream i had gone to the doctor where they told me I was pregnant with twins, a boy and a girl... so we went to do the ultrasound, and that is when we found out that there was actually only one baby, one that was malformed, and the doctor told me that this baby wasnt going to make it and to come back on Friday so it could be taken care of... the whole dream I was going through all the emotions of finding out I was pregnant, then having it all taken away! It was horrible!
I am feeling better today, thank goodness. amazing what a little sleep will do! which speaking of sleep, last night I dreamt that Nannie and Popo were getting remarried in a hotel in Vegas, and they had a "special high rollers" suite, where no one could get in normally... and Nannie and Popo kept trying to ditch us so we couldnt see their secret pimp suite, but I was able to follow them behind a secret door in the wall of the hotel store because an earring propped the door open.. so I followed them and discovered a pimp suite of my own! I fell asleep there with baby Camryn until right when the wedding started to happen! Everyone was rushing around like crazy, and helping Nannie get ready to walk down the aisle again... it was really weird. BUT, to compound the strangeness, earlier in the dream i had gone to the doctor where they told me I was pregnant with twins, a boy and a girl... so we went to do the ultrasound, and that is when we found out that there was actually only one baby, one that was malformed, and the doctor told me that this baby wasnt going to make it and to come back on Friday so it could be taken care of... the whole dream I was going through all the emotions of finding out I was pregnant, then having it all taken away! It was horrible!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Recently
Since I always seem to blog when I am down in the dumps, this should be a good change of pace. I am finally in a really good place all the way around. I love my job, I love my life, I love my husband, and I love myself. While there are always things that could be better, I dare say I am happy!
I love this time of year, the weather is beautiful, I hate Halloween, but the rest of the season is perfectly festive. I have started Christmas shopping which makes me feel so good! Kellen and I have been working hard to pay off our credit card and we are making beautiful progress... we just booked our trip to Vegas to celebrate his graduation, so things couldn't be better!
I am really focusing on the positive things in my life, and positive activities so that I stay in a happy place. I have to say that I would have never pegged myself as someone that needed to worry about my mental health, but after last year I just want to make sure that I don't get there again.
I want to get back into my blogging again, and back into my hobbies, and reading, and working out... and, and, and!
I have this list in my head of all of the things that I want to do when Kellen graduates. I keep saying "when you get done with school..." We are going to go to concerts, we are going to go to baseball games, we are going to run 5k's on the weekend, and take a dancing class... blah blah blah!
I just can't wait for the future and the freedom that is going to come with it!!
I love this time of year, the weather is beautiful, I hate Halloween, but the rest of the season is perfectly festive. I have started Christmas shopping which makes me feel so good! Kellen and I have been working hard to pay off our credit card and we are making beautiful progress... we just booked our trip to Vegas to celebrate his graduation, so things couldn't be better!
I am really focusing on the positive things in my life, and positive activities so that I stay in a happy place. I have to say that I would have never pegged myself as someone that needed to worry about my mental health, but after last year I just want to make sure that I don't get there again.
I want to get back into my blogging again, and back into my hobbies, and reading, and working out... and, and, and!
I have this list in my head of all of the things that I want to do when Kellen graduates. I keep saying "when you get done with school..." We are going to go to concerts, we are going to go to baseball games, we are going to run 5k's on the weekend, and take a dancing class... blah blah blah!
I just can't wait for the future and the freedom that is going to come with it!!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Introspection
It has been quite a while since I sat down and reflected... I take that back... since I wrote about my thoughts about myself. (How narcissistic do I sound?) The thing is that I was more at peace with myself when I did spend a lot more time looking in the mirror, and working on changing the things I didnt like. (Figuratively and literally.)
I have a lot of things that I need to work on, physically, spiritually, mentally. I have pretty much established at this point that I am a mess... but I wasnt always, and I still remember that not TOO long ago, there was a healthy, happy Lauren who had her self together! Now, if I could just find that girl again! :)
Kellen and I have started going back to Church, and it is something that I really enjoy. Working on my (& Kellen's) spiritual life has been very rewarding. It has also helped our relationship a lot, and we have turned it into a date time, where we can reflect on the message we heard at Church and discuss our thoughts, feelings, etc.
I have had a TON of humbling experiences this year, so I have become increasingly aware of all of my "areas of opportunity." Sometimes I have looked inside and I just hate what I see. I want to turn that around so I can be a better person, a better wife, daughter, sister, friend. Hopefully, I will get there sooner than later. I have always been, and continue to be, a work in progress!
Well, until next time!
I have a lot of things that I need to work on, physically, spiritually, mentally. I have pretty much established at this point that I am a mess... but I wasnt always, and I still remember that not TOO long ago, there was a healthy, happy Lauren who had her self together! Now, if I could just find that girl again! :)
Kellen and I have started going back to Church, and it is something that I really enjoy. Working on my (& Kellen's) spiritual life has been very rewarding. It has also helped our relationship a lot, and we have turned it into a date time, where we can reflect on the message we heard at Church and discuss our thoughts, feelings, etc.
I have had a TON of humbling experiences this year, so I have become increasingly aware of all of my "areas of opportunity." Sometimes I have looked inside and I just hate what I see. I want to turn that around so I can be a better person, a better wife, daughter, sister, friend. Hopefully, I will get there sooner than later. I have always been, and continue to be, a work in progress!
Well, until next time!
Monday, May 31, 2010
New Beginnings
Well, I attempted to start a new personal blog and leave all the craziness of this Lauren behind... almost just forget she ever existed... but it was hard since this was one linked to my email :)
I would still like to disassociate myself currently with the crazy girl impersonating me last year. This year has provided a lot of opportunities to start fresh and learn from my mistakes, and to move on. I am finally out of the management position that made me want to seriously shoot someone, and now I am in a position with work where I am responsible for my own performance, and I am learning to adjust to that... I am traveling more which I like, but I really miss Kellen and Chewie while Im gone... but it is SOO nice when I finally get to come home!
We just spent the weekend with my family and we had a pretty good time. They are right when they say that you never can go home again. Things are always changing and it feels different everytime we go back there. Ty is getting so big (and he is so bad!) Hailey is getting older and it is so hard to accept that she is about to legally be an adult (makes you think they ought to change the legal age) and mom and dad are the same... always bickering, so at least you can count on that!
I am headed to Austin tomorrow, which is making me sad because I just got back from Arizona on Thursday night, so in the span of 12 days, I have slept in my own bed TWICE! I already cant wait to get back home on Friday!
I have started to ready more religiously, especially while I am traveling, and I really enjoy getting lost in that world... I am also throwing myself back into my knitting and doing more productive activities... know if I could just make my hobbies help me burn calories....
I would still like to disassociate myself currently with the crazy girl impersonating me last year. This year has provided a lot of opportunities to start fresh and learn from my mistakes, and to move on. I am finally out of the management position that made me want to seriously shoot someone, and now I am in a position with work where I am responsible for my own performance, and I am learning to adjust to that... I am traveling more which I like, but I really miss Kellen and Chewie while Im gone... but it is SOO nice when I finally get to come home!
We just spent the weekend with my family and we had a pretty good time. They are right when they say that you never can go home again. Things are always changing and it feels different everytime we go back there. Ty is getting so big (and he is so bad!) Hailey is getting older and it is so hard to accept that she is about to legally be an adult (makes you think they ought to change the legal age) and mom and dad are the same... always bickering, so at least you can count on that!
I am headed to Austin tomorrow, which is making me sad because I just got back from Arizona on Thursday night, so in the span of 12 days, I have slept in my own bed TWICE! I already cant wait to get back home on Friday!
I have started to ready more religiously, especially while I am traveling, and I really enjoy getting lost in that world... I am also throwing myself back into my knitting and doing more productive activities... know if I could just make my hobbies help me burn calories....
Saturday, March 20, 2010
March Madness
March Madness isnt just about basketball, ya'll! :)
I have recently picked up a new hobby, or hobby-to-be, which is quilting! Kellen's sister Bailey really got my wheels turning on it, so I am giving it a whirl! I am really enjoying it so far, and I hope I get to be really good at it!!
I finished the baby blanket that I made for Chad and Heather today... it only took about two months and several skeins of yarn because i made it WAY too big, but I think it will still be functional and I am going to give it to them anyways... I think they will still like it!
I am going to start some new knitting projects soon too... one of the things that I am learning through counseling is that I really need to focus on my life outside of work, and not just at work. She said that when we dont have a life at home, we tend to create an artificial life at work, which makes sense, and that if I get that way, I probably need to focus more on my home life. DUH, right? Why didnt I think of that before?
I have also recently started looking for ANYTHING else, in terms of work! I have applied for a couple of internal positions, but my time as a service manager is coming to an end... for several reasons. I need an opportunity to take the lessons that I learned in that branch, and make a fresh start somewhere else. I need to separate my personal and professional life on so many levels that its not even funny. I have had a lot of interest generated by my applications to different companies, but I am basically just waiting for the right opportunity and the right paycheck! :) Its just basically waiting to see who can afford me!
Things are going well with my Nannie and Popo, which means my prayers are being answered!! I talked to Nannie the other day to see if she could offer any help with learning how to quilt... she said SHE hadnt even learned how to yet!! Funny, because thats what she said she wanted to do when she retired!! :) She is silly!
I am starting to have more and more internal peace, and feel like I am back to normal in terms of my attitude, priorities, long term goals... I felt like I had lost all of that for a while, so it is really nice to feel like the old Lauren again (whoever that was!) I had always felt like I had a really good understanding of who I was, but for a while there, I lost her.... I wasnt sure who was standing in her place, but that girl was not in a good place at all... It took a long time for her to go away, but I feel like she is gone, and I am back! Is that a normal feeling? I hope not, because it was not a fun experience for me!! But I am in a much better place personally, and in my marriage now, and I thank God everyday! It feels good to be able to breathe again!
well, that is all for now... L-Boogie Out!
I have recently picked up a new hobby, or hobby-to-be, which is quilting! Kellen's sister Bailey really got my wheels turning on it, so I am giving it a whirl! I am really enjoying it so far, and I hope I get to be really good at it!!
I finished the baby blanket that I made for Chad and Heather today... it only took about two months and several skeins of yarn because i made it WAY too big, but I think it will still be functional and I am going to give it to them anyways... I think they will still like it!
I am going to start some new knitting projects soon too... one of the things that I am learning through counseling is that I really need to focus on my life outside of work, and not just at work. She said that when we dont have a life at home, we tend to create an artificial life at work, which makes sense, and that if I get that way, I probably need to focus more on my home life. DUH, right? Why didnt I think of that before?
I have also recently started looking for ANYTHING else, in terms of work! I have applied for a couple of internal positions, but my time as a service manager is coming to an end... for several reasons. I need an opportunity to take the lessons that I learned in that branch, and make a fresh start somewhere else. I need to separate my personal and professional life on so many levels that its not even funny. I have had a lot of interest generated by my applications to different companies, but I am basically just waiting for the right opportunity and the right paycheck! :) Its just basically waiting to see who can afford me!
Things are going well with my Nannie and Popo, which means my prayers are being answered!! I talked to Nannie the other day to see if she could offer any help with learning how to quilt... she said SHE hadnt even learned how to yet!! Funny, because thats what she said she wanted to do when she retired!! :) She is silly!
I am starting to have more and more internal peace, and feel like I am back to normal in terms of my attitude, priorities, long term goals... I felt like I had lost all of that for a while, so it is really nice to feel like the old Lauren again (whoever that was!) I had always felt like I had a really good understanding of who I was, but for a while there, I lost her.... I wasnt sure who was standing in her place, but that girl was not in a good place at all... It took a long time for her to go away, but I feel like she is gone, and I am back! Is that a normal feeling? I hope not, because it was not a fun experience for me!! But I am in a much better place personally, and in my marriage now, and I thank God everyday! It feels good to be able to breathe again!
well, that is all for now... L-Boogie Out!
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