Apprehensively Beginning...

As techonology progresses, and everything becomes paperless, I suppose it would only make sense that I throw out that journal I try to maintain for my sanity, and attempt to express my feelings and thoughts without any writer's cramps.

As I begin to sort through thoughts I feel worth sharing, I begin to amuse myself with this thought: "While my content may not be sensational, my blog will most definitely have the best grammar and punctuation!"

I am starting this blog at a very pivotal point in my life... I just graduated UNT with a bachelor's degree in finance, I am recently married, a struggling to develop my career as a young professional, and I can truly say that I learned an immense deal over this last year. (I caught myself saying "learned more last year than I have ever learned in my whole life," but that "in my whole life" clause is a pet peeve. First of all, it doesn't mean much if your life span is 21 years old. Second of all, it really calls into question how serious you are about the information you are conveying that way because how can you accurately measure that against your whole life? Stick to the facts here, c'mon)

But I digress... 2008 taught me a lot. I learned the majority of my finance background this last year. I can now calculate how much liquidity and risk a company has on its balance sheet (or is hiding in its footnotes) backwards and forwards, literally. I learned not to go out to celebrate a semester long project with my classmates at Fry Street... that was a big pill to swallow (a large dose of embarrassment!) I learned about how hard it is to live with a man... I love him, but Kellen just doesn't get a lot of my "quirks" the way Rebekah did! Plus, he doesn't dance around the apartment with me either! (I miss my roomie!) I could go on, but that is a whole different blog! I also learned about how naive I was... more about had to accept how naive I was. I learned how much BS goes on in the real world professionally, and I am still adjusting to how to make it a non-issue. I will elaborate later.

This year I went to a counselor a few times... she wasn't really jiving with my emotional needs, so I stopped going. When the counselor doesn't believe half the stuff you are saying, that is when you know you have to get out of there! The whole point is not to amaze her at the crazy stories you have, right? I can amaze normal people all day long... I want my counselor to have some experience with my issues. I did make some progress, most of which I attribute mostly to my own introspective contributions. I could get into detail, but I will save that for its own blog some other time... actually, this one may be a series. :)

I guess this last year was mostly about learning about myself... cultivating my personality, discovering different parts about myself, some good, some bad. Now, having time to look back and think... about what I loved, what I hated, why I hated, what to do about it, and so on. I love to look back and discover things about myself (sounds narcissistic, but I think more people should do a little self realization) so that I can grow as a person, and develop into the woman I want to become. I have accomplished some great things ("great to me" things) and I have a lot more that I want to accomplish in the future!